Finally able to form complete sentences

Messing with our kids while they sleep.
Messing with our kids while they sleep.

Every time I tried posting this past week, my brain literally stalled out. It has been extremely hard translating the thoughts in my head onto these pages. I have tried many times over the last several days, but each time, I had to stop because my brain hurt.

Alas, I am feeling better. Nine days later, my head still hurts and if you give me your hand I will let you feel the indentation on my skull. Ask Kat, Alan, Dave and my mom (they all felt it) and yes, the depression in my skull is a kind of disconcerting, but what’s a little skull depression now that I am back (I think).

I have missed writing. I have missed reading. I have missed talking in complete and eloquent paragraphs. I pray I have a greater appreciation for neurological conditions. I hope there are no long-lasting affects of my concussion. There were moments when I felt truly sorry for myself and moments when I convinced myself that my concussion was not real, but all in my head [wink]. I am amazed at how much a bump to the noggin can humble a person. I have spent this past week feeling as though I was looking through someone else’s glasses (a little unerving I might add). Because I have two little boys who depend on me, I pushed myself into forming the words and laughing past the millions of times I unintentionally blended every word that came out of my mouth.

“I know I meant to say Urban Outfitters, but isn’t Burbonitters much cuter sounding than Urban Outfitters? Hey, and I bet Bourbon-Knitters would totally serve you booze while you knit, you think?”

Scary stuff.

Thank you everyone for your awesome birthday wishes. You made my year. For your compassionate thoughts regarding my brain trauma, I will always be grateful. I have so much to say and I will say it. I always feel badly when I promise you a story and then I don’t deliver, but I will. Tonight, because I am able to finally write, however, I simply needed to say how glad I am for my brain, how glad I am to be alright and how grateful I am for all of the support I have received. Thank You!

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19 thoughts on “Finally able to form complete sentences

  1. Me neither! I’ve lived too long among the Danger Genes, I don’t take things seriously enough. You poor woman! Thank gosh you’re doing better…don’t worry about us, just rest up!

  2. Take very good care of yourself Beth, and don’t feel bad for not posting, we will be waiting and thinking of you.

  3. I’m so glad you’re doing better. I’ve been worried.

    No more running like a lunatic and not looking where your head is aiming, mkay?

    (That reminds me of yesterday, running behind my kids on their bikes – first time really riding without training wheels – and yelling, “Don’t Look Down! Look AHEAD!! AHEAD!!” while they pedal right into the mailbox.)

  4. I’m so glad you are feeling better, Beth. My sister actually got a concussion 4 weeks ago (from a minor car accident) and I can’t believe the effects it had on her–blurred vision, headache, spaciness, etc. She is doing much better, too (all that is left is the headache), but it’s been scary, too–trying not to worry too much about long-term effects and just focusing on the steady (although slower than we’d like) positive progress.

  5. oh, beth. i’m so glad you’re okay! i can’t imagine how scary that was. we just got some bad news from a friend, and hearing things like this just makes me realize even more how fragile we really are…

  6. HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY BETH!!!!!!!!!
    Sorry about being late… we moved from Quebec City to Calgary recently. My computer is still in it’s box. ARGH.
    I hope that you’re feeling much better after your ‘bump.’
    Hope the boys took good care of you during your healing and on your birthday!

  7. Oh my gosh, Beth. I am glad the words are back. You are putting on a brave face, but I know it must’ve been a little scary. You’re in my thoughts. 🙂

  8. Ahh, Burbonitters. I like the combination of the words. Incidentally, I’m thinking of renaming and re-domaining and re-branding my site.

    If you spew out a few word combinations that you think would work well, email me. I’m totally not above using your brain injury for my benefit. 🙂

  9. For your birthday, no less! I’m sorry to hear you had such a rough bump to the head. I hope your feeling 100% soon!

  10. I Understand What You Meanabrot braindamage alcoholism hads been all my life im sober now 5 years A few years back God help Now im learing to writ one day at a time

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