I am starving!

The boys having a snack at our new home building site

It’s barely 11:00 A.M. and I can hardly stand it. I can not get past how hungry I am. Does ravenous mean anything to you? All I can manage to do with my starving body is sit at my laptop and type. I am so famished and I don’t have any idea why. I mean, come on, I ate my usual Oatmeal mixed with Rice Milk and Brown Sugar with two cups of tea breakfast, just a few hours ago.

And for the past twenty-three minutes I have looked at the clock like a child on Christmas morning, waiting for the moment they can open their presents. . . 10:37 . . . 10:43 . . . 10:58 . . . trying to convince myself that if only I can wait until 11:00 A.M., I can eat something. Crazy. I feel crazy and seriously hungry. Have any of you ever felt this way?

I watch my laptop clock magically switch from 10:59 to 11:00 A.M., knowing that all my pain and suffering will shortly be over. Then I spring to the freezer, open my stash of raw almonds, shove a handful in my mouth and grab a few of the chocolate cookies my friend gave me for my birthday. As I type, I eat.

And, you know what?

I am still hungry. Oh man! I really don’t have anything good to eat. I am sick of my usual Corn Flakes and raisins and am just hoping I can hold on until after we pick Kyle up. (Then I can take the boys to my favorite Mexican Restaurant — Rubios — I Know. I am classy like that. Yum. Taquitos!)

Right this very moment, Eli has a friend over. They found the marbles and are having a blast filling the bulldozer with those little round glass balls. I hear their loud joy from the toy room. I have checked on them several times, but because they are past “choking hazard” age, I am letting them have a little bit of autonomy.

Oh Shoot!

I hear them marching up the stairs.

“I am hungry!”

“We are hungry!”

[thinking to myself] “Now they are hungry. There is no way I am going to avoid stuffing my face with these two very hungry boys demanding some food . . . Why oh why am I so damn hungry today?”

Eli walks over, grabs my arm and says,

[penitent] “Mom, just come see. Come see.”

I will be right back. I need to go and see.

I am back (of course, I am back with a handful of almonds).

Am I bad that I made Eli’s accident seem a little worse than it was? He knocked a shelf down from our lovely IKEA toy room shelving unit.

Upshot of our conversation:

“Eli, if you knock the shelving unit down, it could fall on you and then, YOU COULD DIE!. Seriously, if it falls on you, you could be killed. Please don’t sit on it again, ok?”

“Ok, mom, I won’t”

Presently, the two boys are sitting at the table with me. They are giggling and enjoying their processed food. I must go. Eli needs me to shove another cheese cracker in his mouth. (He is pretending to be a slot machine — not that he knows what a slot machine really is . . .)


P.S. Just this morning I realized that I had forgotten Eli’s Music Program this past Monday. How lame am I? I would like to say the slip was due to my concussion, but seriously concussion or not, I shouldn’t have missed it. And besides, it doesn’t take away how sad I felt or Eli was when he told me,

“Mom, I was the only one who didn’t have a parent there. I had to walk around the train all by myself.”

Before I had children, I swore I would never be one of those parents. You know, the parent, who blows off their children. I am much more sympathetic now. And after spending the morning with just Eli (before his friend came over), I am hoping he feels how much I love him and that he knows that I will try never to miss his music program ever again.

Oh, Parenting!

18 thoughts on “I am starving!

  1. All I can say is, there are phases of the moon that seem to direct me to eat entire small villages, their crops, their livestock & sometimes even, their transport vehicles.

    Nuts are the only quick cure for “ravenous” for me, so good pick on those almonds! (were they smokehouse? YUM!)

  2. What a great photo of you and the boys!
    hmmm – starving, might this be hormone related?

  3. I am like that every day at precisely 4pm. Ravenous. Unbelievably hungry. What is it with that?

    And don’t worry too much about the music program. You’re human. It’s bound to happen. I don’t know how I remember anything around here, and I haven’t even had a bump on the head!

  4. I have ravenous days too. I found a surefire thing that works for me (your mileage may vary obviously): keep busy. If I’m at work I dive into a big project. If I’m at home I clean or organize something. If I’m really trying not to eat anything I’ll seriously pull everything out of a closet just to distract myself. My house is very clean 🙂

    I moved to SLC in October and still haven’t found any really good Mexican restaurants, so would you mind saying what your “favorite Mexican restaurant” is? I’m bummed because I thought I’d find no shortage of Mexican food out west…

  5. Sometimes I get a craving for sweet things, but yeah, sometimes it’s just a craving for food … must eat incessantly! Sweet photo by the way 🙂

  6. Hey, thanks everyone for understanding the hunger issue. I try to keep myself busy and most days it is not a problem, but I tell you what, yesterday was.

    Jenn, as far as good Mexican Restaurants, there are all kinds. What kind of Mexican food do you like?


    1. The Red Iguana (authentic)
    2. Betos (really cheesy, but good)
    3. Rubios
    4. Cafe Rio: (I love the tostados, chips and guacamole and tortilla soup — the line is often long which sucks though)
    6. Bajio
    7. I just ate at one by the Einsteins in Park City the other day. I really enjoyed it. I just can’t remember the name.

    Have you tried any of these?

    Good luck. Let me know.

  7. Beth, is that a dent on your forehead?!


    Just kidding, I couldn’t resist.

    What I really meant to say was the following two points:

    1- Holy moly! You look stunning in that photo!

    2- Could your boys BE any blonder?

    PS – super glad to see you back on the horse, insatiable appetite or not.

  8. Aaaawwww! I missed one of my boy’s award ceremonies and felt like I deserved the bad mom of the year award. It feels sort of devastating, but in the grand scheme of things, we all have our forgetful moments. You seem like a fantastic mother, and I’m sure that’s the impression that will be left in your children’s minds.

    Starving??? Pregnant??? I wish you the best!

  9. That is a great photo! Don’t stress about the program. It happens to all of us. I always get really hungry a few days before I start. I snack all day on sweet and salty.

  10. What a great picture! Hey, I just wrote earlier this week about Natalie missing a project deadline because I SWORE up and down it wasn’t until today. I totally felt like a loser parent. But it’s forgotten now. Thank goodness! And yes, I totally said I’d NEVER do that. Now I do stupid sh*t like that ALL. THE. TIME.

  11. I have tried Cafe Rio, Bajio, and Barbacoa. As for actual restaurants, we’ve tried Loco Lizard, Guadalahonky’s, El Farol, Hector’s Miramar… and probably others I’m forgetting. We haven’t really loved anything so far.

    I heard about Red/Blue Iguana and we plan to try there next. I will also investigate the others you mention. My main goal is just to find some decent enchiladas and such, but I also love fajitas (which I know are actually tex-mex).

    I miss my beloved Don Pablo’s back in Michigan… the best fajitas I’ve had in Utah were at Chili’s!

  12. Oh man I know the feeling. I have been on a diet for almost three months now. Apples Yogurt and salads. But I love all three so it is OK. I have lost almost 5 kilos. Yea!
    Got to get a new bathing suit as we will be in Bali in 3 weeks. We need this vacation. And I don’t want a belly hanging over my suit. 🙁

  13. Beautiful mama with her tie-dyed cuties.

    Yeah, I wondered if you’re pregnant, too, but I’m over-eager that way.

  14. I wonder, too–could the hunger be hormone related??

    That said, I eat oatmeal with RICE milk every morning, TOO. I haven’t tried it with brown sugar, though. That’s a great idea.

    And yes, GREAT photo!

  15. That was my thought too….hormonal! Clearly hormonal! The worst irrational, can’t get filled up, hunger there is…

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